My Journey Home to Me

The problem was never out there. The problem was not men, my marriage, my husband, my family, my childhood, my parents, my job, money, sex, my weight, my exes, being a woman, etc.

The problem was always me.

I did not know who I was. I lived in a façade of being who I thought I needed to be in order to be liked, loved, and accepted. I lived behind my self-created walls, playing small and protecting myself from life.

I never felt that I was enough – good enough, popular enough, smart enough, skinny enough, pretty enough, successful enough.

I did not know how to be myself. I did not know how to be a woman. I did not know what it took to be happy and fulfilled. I did not know how to do life.

I always felt like something was missing – like something was wrong with me. I was so busy trying to save everything and everyone out there that I was completely missing out on me and my life.

The solution to my seemingly never-ending inadequacy and problems was me. The answers I was desperately searching for were inside me.

My path to finding my answers and finally being enough was and continues to be healing my relationship with myself and creating my life as the real me. It is taking full responsibility for myself and my life, knowing I have a choice in who I am and who I become.

To be happy, I had to learn how to reconnect with myself by dropping my façade and learning to be true to myself.

It was only by dropping my façade and connecting with myself that I learned how to have a healthy relationship with myself, my life, and with others. It has been the secret to always feeling enough and having a rewarding, meaningful life.

Underneath my façade, I found everything I ever wanted to be, feel, and experience in myself and life.

I found myself.

It turns out, I was the answer I had been searching for my whole life.